Example: December 6th Birthday
Birth (Self, Soul) Card
I was always jealous of Abe, MLK, Mother Teresa and fellow JACK of Clubs Oprah, because they seemed to have figured out their purpose early in life. Teresa received "the call within the call" when she was 36, King gave his dream speech at 34, Lincoln became president at 52 and Oprah, my Super Heroine, hit her self-help stride at 41. Here I was 63 and my leader, my lover, my wife was gone. I was just as confused and helpless as her young adult children, my step son and daughter. Their bio-dad was alive but functionally incapable of providing solace, while my 13 year relationship with their mother was not family inclusive. Shelby’s favorite counsel was, “deal with what is on the tray in front of you.”
My tray held 100 goats, 3 cows, 60 laying hens, our two-fulltime help, Abundio and Carmella, and way too much responsibility for a Purpose in Life avoider like me. My attorney brother-in-law suggested selling the farm, livestock and barrel. Oh, how I wished I could have done that but guilt comes with abundance when following the path of least resistance. Although, the Anala Goat Company, was Shelby’s dream, not mine, what would she say?
I stayed, got to experience decision-making and the weekly financial challenges of a $1,100 payroll, $500 feed bill and $600 mortgage. It was my karmic payback for those six years of Goat Farming 101, subtitled, “Make $100,000 a year, from 50 goats on five acres.” A lot easier said, when your partner is a CPA Systems Analyst and knows what she’s doing or at least thinks that it’s her calling.
It took a year of selling milk, chevre, feta, kefir, chickens, eggs, honey, sausage and rabbits at eight farmers’ markets a week, but I did it. When a neighbor knocked on my trailer house door and agreed to buy the farm, I was free, free at last. Now, sixty-four I still didn’t have a clue about my purpose in life other than, it wasn’t goat farming.
I guessed that explained why, I also didn’t know my purpose in life. Ms. Eugene had over-dosed on self-awareness at Sai Baba’s ashram in India and couldn’t wait to dismember my sense of self-worth garnered in my ten years of goat farming. However, my alternate class to Goat Farming 101, was “Finding Your Dharma,” your purpose in life. This subject matter appealed to her, where discussing the benefits of animal fats went against her vegetarian grain. On our 800th visit to the new and used bookstores, we discovered Gary Goldschneider’s The Secret Language of Destiny.
Dharma and the 4th Turning